Spiritual Disciplines, the non-voluntary type

There is an ever increasing body of writing on the subject of Spiritual Disciplines. I have contributed to the pile of new books on the subject with Choose The Life, Exploring a faith that embraces discipleship and with, [pardon the title] The Complete Book of Discipleship. This writing encourages readers to intentionally choose to follow Jesus, and part of that means engaging in the same practices he modeled. For example, prayer, fasting, silence, solitude, frugality, worship, service, and sacrifice. Practicing the intentional ones or voluntary disciplines are like preventive health care, there is not a lot of buzz about it, because it helps us avoid a lot of life's negative experience that comes from bad habits and attitudes. But then there are the non-voluntary disciplines, they come to us in the form of conflict, persecution, and the dark night of the soul. It is quite often said, "I learned much more through my suffering than in the more normal events of my life."  This is often the case because it is easier to remember being run over by a motorcycle than the six weeks you were reading Daily Bread. Times of crisis and loss are commemorated, while daily bible reading can fall into the same category as push ups. Many of us sometimes think there are enough of the non-voluntary spiritual disciplines that they take up all our time. But I might suggest that the intentional practice of the voluntary will help us endure the non-voluntary. 

I certainly do agree with you and thanks so much for writing this blog.

This is so true. Nevertheless, I find it very difficult to persist in the voluntary-disciplines. I crave and desire them, but have a problem getting them into my daily routine. I make appointments or forget, or am too lazy to get out of bed in the morning, when the night before was long with counseling appointments or small groups or meetings, and the little boy had a nightmare.

Recently, I resolved to say that there are simply different seasons in life. Seasons, where the spiritual-disciplines can be more diligently practiced than others. But, I caught myself and realized that wouldn't be diligence. Is not a sign of diligence, the organizing of life around the things, to which you choose to be diligent? But then what is with wife and children and work? No matter how much I teach it myself, (I'm a pastor) I can't seem to bring myself to cancel other appointments for my own spiritual growth. I know there are more than a few people on my board of deacons, who will strongly disapprove of my use of time. Spiritual growth should take place on my own time. But I don't have any "own" time.

Okay, maybe it's clear that I am in desperate need of vacation. Leaving next Wednesday. But my question is really: how does a real man working as a pastor, diligently practice the spiritual disciplines? I feel like, although in the past I have had great experience being diligent in the disciplines, that it's just yet another appointment on my list, which I'm already trying to reduce. I find myself calling out for God's grace yet know that I'm cheapening it by not giving him the room he needs to lead and guide. It's a circle, I'm done.

First of all, I have been right where you are and I am sure will find myself there again given the nature of life. I follow some basic rules, oh well, most of the time I follow these rules.1. I don't do any disciplines that I haven't seen Jesus do.2. Jesus was not uptight about them, it seems he did them because he sensed a need to communicate with his father. So I refuse to be uptight and guilty because Jesus just did them on a as needed basis, so me too.  3. I think of them as exercise that will equip me to be nearer the heart of God, to hear his voice and to enjoy him.4. I focus on the ones I especially need. If I have a tendency to need noise, I choose silence, if I am addicted to people, I choose solitude, If I am addicted to food, I choose fasting, if I am full of control issues and anxiety, I meditate on peace.If I am withdrawn and selfish, I choose service.5. I also do them my way, walking, exercising, at a time of day that fits me, I don't let others decide for me.  I choose the think of it all as a grace narrative, I am weak, lost, messed up, and I am drawn to God for strength, guidance, and character.