Bill Hull’s passion has been to help the church return to its disciple making roots and he considers himself a discipleship evangelist. This God-given desire has manifested itself in twenty years of pastoral service and the authorship of ten books. His first book, Jesus Christ Disciplemaker, is celebrating 20 years with a new edition. The Disciple Making Pastor and the Disciple Making Church are two successive books which make up his popular disciple making trilogy. These books have provided the church with a new paradigm for disciple making.
This is so true. Nevertheless, I find it very difficult to persist in the voluntary-disciplines. I crave and desire them, but have a problem getting them into my daily routine. I make appointments or forget, or am too lazy to get out of bed in the morning, when the night before was long with counseling appointments or small groups or meetings, and the little boy had a nightmare.
Recently, I resolved to say that there are simply different seasons in life. Seasons, where the spiritual-disciplines can be more diligently practiced than others. But, I caught myself and realized that wouldn't be diligence. Is not a sign of diligence, the organizing of life around the things, to which you choose to be diligent? But then what is with wife and children and work? No matter how much I teach it myself, (I'm a pastor) I can't seem to bring myself to cancel other appointments for my own spiritual growth. I know there are more than a few people on my board of deacons, who will strongly disapprove of my use of time. Spiritual growth should take place on my own time. But I don't have any "own" time.
Okay, maybe it's clear that I am in desperate need of vacation. Leaving next Wednesday. But my question is really: how does a real man working as a pastor, diligently practice the spiritual disciplines? I feel like, although in the past I have had great experience being diligent in the disciplines, that it's just yet another appointment on my list, which I'm already trying to reduce. I find myself calling out for God's grace yet know that I'm cheapening it by not giving him the room he needs to lead and guide. It's a circle, I'm done.