Dear brother Richard,
I am very encouraged and helped in my own struggles by your faihfulness to Christ in spite of the lack of love from the body of Christ. You, like all of us have a sin that attracts our base desires and that we will struggle with right up to death's door. God has delievered me completely from some things, but not all. Those that remain are for the testing and producing of my faith in Him. I am amazed that you found so little sympathy and support from elders!

Just keep the faith brother! You honor God by your honesty with yourself, us, and Him and are a source of great encouragement to those of us who sometimes fall for the lie that no one has it as bad as we do! Anyone who has kept their trust in God and lived a victorious life in Christ for 27 years knows a lot more about God than I do! God bless you!